Teenage Dream

Damn, I do feel like having a shot! This just reminds me of the song, Not Afraid which raps "I'm not afraid, to take a step, everybody, come take my hand." Every time I listen to Katy Perry's songs, they always push me to do something crazy. I guess the first thing I'll regret about my own life is that I never do something crazy. But maybe once I did, I won't take it as crazy. Something crazy is the thing that you've never done. I know it depends. But, as I look back now, my life really needs to add some spice. Something crazy doesn't have to be something illegal, while it needs to be something that I have never done before.

I've listened to thousands of stories already. I saw them smile, cry, giggle, scream, murmur, worry, and think. That's surely the true color of life! I don't really care if it's hard or tough. Maybe what I need is those bitter experience that will cure my numbness. I want to go through it, at least once. Everybody talks and sings about it. I'm gonna sing and talk about it, too!

I'm not sure if wait is worth it. I'm trying to grab every chance that may be the history. Nothing is better than memory, isn't it? If I don't even take a bite, how come I know the taste? If I don't step out, how come I know the feeling of falling out? This is real, man! Don't ever look back.

I want to be young forever, for real!

Don't Push Me

"We, as parents, are just worried about you, afraid that you would get in trouble by knowing some horny guys or pervs." "I'm just trying to tell you what I've learned so that you won't have to get through all of these." "Sense of safety is pretty important, instead of other factors when choosing friends." I thought my parents wouldn't interrupt how I deal with my friends.

I mean, I am nineteen years old for Christ sake's, almost twenty. How can't I tell right from wrong? Everyone has its own way to make friends. They say they won't poke their nose into my friends, but "Freunden" is not included. Great, this is the most terrified thing that I'm scared to face. Just because I'm a girl, I'm so-called female-needed-to-be-protected, they feel obliged to pay attention to my Freunden choosing. You know what? I have my own standard. I can decide by myself that who I want to be with, and who I don't want to give a shit.

Their worries are totally understandable actually. I'm not saying that your worries are not necessary. I appreciate that, I really do. The concerns mean I'm still the apple of your eye. But I have to say your words can only be taken as suggestions, not orders. I'll keep that in mind. However, something can't be changed if I've already done. And I won't change it. I always listen to my voice at the end, anyway.