This is it

There are two ways to be happy: to improve the reality, or to lower your expectation.

Different standards are being used to judge the same things. It's not fair! I did it because I thought so. No one was being hurt by me, and I didn't bother others. So what the hell are you annoyed at? You've got to know that people are individuals. I have my own ways, even though I was made by you. It dosen't mean that I should question every move I make before decision. We both need to learn to let go.

I make mistakes because I have right to make mistakes. I'm still learning. There's no way in hell that's being perfect when being young. The point is not making mistakes though, it's about learning. I just need supports and advice, not judgement or how many points I'll get. I know I have to be a certain age to earn the right to ruin my own life. Since you care about me, you won't allow anything that standing in my way to push me back. But did you know? A bullet-proof window can be an illusion that blocks me out from the outside. I still see what the real world is, but I will never understand how to "be" in the real world.

I can recite your sufferings during your teen period when even sleeping, but my future is no match for your past.

My childhood did live up to your expectation, didn't it? I thanks for the teaching and I know you're proud. I put lots of efforts to improve my reality and could you lower your expectation a little bit?

Dad, I want you to be happy. It's just all I wish.