Hope it won't be the end

I've questioned myself whether I made a worng choice or not. There were thousands of IFs which freaked me out like crazy. If I didn't, If I wasn't , If I haven't, what would it be? I thought I truly had a person that I could confide in because it's much safer for an outsider to be a listener. I thought the ages could be like a pillow for me to lie on because at least you had more chapters of life than I did. I thought the miles could result in the contact between pens and papers which are more interesting and memorable than the virtual words. But all those IFs are going to be "real. " I even dreamed that was all kidding jokes and everything could start all over again. I do need a person that can share some precious experience instead of the complicated word starting with an L .